Chapter 4: Views on Religion

I'm changing Days to Chapter.

Since the new boss coming in, I barely have time to do blog. But, I'm changing things around. I will still going to finished the challenged, but will turn it into chapters instead of days. So I won't feel guilty everyday for not blogging.

Views on Religion.

I am a Catholic. People say we always guilty. Because Jesus die for us, and yet we still do the same sin everyday. Maybe not for some of us. I am a Catholic since I was born. Being a Catholic is not what others say , very strict and a lot of rules. For me, being a Catholic makes you feel closer to God, not just only based on the Holy Bible but through our daily life.

I confess that I haven't read the whole Holy Bible. But, doesn't mean I am a bad Christian. I don't think that reading the Holy Bible over and over again will put you into different category. I am more to practise the living as a Catholic, not the one who are too obsessed with the Holy Bible.

I made friends with a lot of different people. My best friends are Muslims. They are very open Islam believers. They wear hijab and pray 5 times a day, but I never feel discrimination with them. I understabd their needs to pray and they should understand me to pray.

I guess religion is platform for you to get closer to God. As a Catholic, I feel closer to God, when I pray Our Father, Ave Maria and when I sing holy songs. Probably as a Muslims, they feel closer to God when they pray 5 times a day and follow all rules.

One common thing about religion is they never ask us to do bad things, such as killing people and stuff. It just not right. Some people use religion as their way to kill people. That's just sick!

I believe if all religion respect each other, the world would be in peace. But the Satan needs to work too.

Sincerly,
APPY.H.S

Thank You

I feel I want to speak to Lord this time.

Dearest Lord,

Hi there. Probably been a while since we talked. Thank you for saving us the other day. The accident was pretty messed up, but luckily no one injured. Except for the dog who ran into us and died. I am sorry for that. I hope his soul rest in peace with the other dogs.

For this day, I would like to say thank you. For everything I have in life. I must say, its near perfection. I couldn't ask for more, well maybe I can :) but now it's almost great.

My parents. Amazing parents. Sometimes annoying :), but that's what parents should be. Even thou they are not the brightest people on earth, they have big qualities. Big heart. They care for us, so much. Sometimes, they may not understand, but they are always there to listen. And they always support us. Doesn't matter how stupid our decision is. I love them very much. I am practically devoted my life to make them happy. Until I got married and start to have my own family. :)

I am grateful for my big family. I think we are the most greatest big family ever. We are so close and so devoted with each other. We treat each other as brothers and sisters. We backed up each other, and took care of each other. I hope this relationship will stay strong. Always, forever.

Commitment

I guess I have issue with commitment.

I always wants to get married. I want to have children of my own. I want to have someone who always there for me. Physically and mentally. I want someone to hold at night, to listen to me at 3am . I want someone who there for me, support me and never want anything else than me. I want someone who accept my flaws and understand than I am not perfect.

I don't want long distance relationship. I want somebody here, for me. Whenever I need him. I don't want to have a relationship on phone. I don't want relationship based on money status or, education status. I need someone who make me as his first priority. Who accept me even If I lie to him, so many times. Who always listen to what I like, and what I don't like. Who care for my feeling.

I am afraid for being alone again. I'm afraid of being let down. Im afraid that life surprises me in a way I couldn't accept it. I'm afraid I don't have enough courage to fight for it. Because I still have doubt. Or maybe I'm still waiting for the same person. ?

Whatever it is, I'm tired of planning. Tired of waiting. Tired of expecting. Tired of trying so hard.

When your mind conflicted with your heart, which one do you choose?